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有些东西
Some things
当你爱过后
once you've loved them
就永远的属于你
become yours forever.
如果你想对它们放手
And if you try to let them go
它们只会打转 又回到你身边
they only circle back and return to you.
它们成为了你的一部分
They become part of who you are.
"不然就毁了你"
"Or they destroy you"
你不能把这个给任何人看
You can't show this to anyone.
- 那就说出真相 卢 - 你都不在场
- Then tell the truth, Lu. - You weren't even there.
那是你的真相 是小说!
It's your truth. It's fiction!
你也想他消失 你把他送到我面前的
You wanted him gone, too. You sent him to me.
求你了 这个会害死我
Please. You'll kill me with that.
艾伦!
Allen!
杀死
不 艾伦!
No. Allen!
汝
别走!
Don't. No!
别走!
Don't!
爱
根据真人真事改编
今日世界新闻
World News Today.
美国白日轰炸机今天又很忙碌
American daylight bombers were busy again today.
我们的解放者继续空中打击
Our Liberators with fighter escort have continued the air offensive
又命中一处德军在法国的临海军事设施
with another sock at German coastal installations in France.
泥水在困扰着俄国军队
Mud and slush are hampering the Russian armies
从爱沙尼亚到黑海
from Estonia to the Black Sea
但德国报道说一支新红军主力在突进罗马尼亚
but the Germans report a big new Red Army push toward Romania.
一份土耳其急电说德国
A dispatch from Turkey says the Germans
又开始对南斯拉夫解放军展开了总攻
have begun another general offensive against the Yugoslav partisans
而在太平洋 洛斯内格罗斯岛的美军...
and, in the Pacific, American troops on Los Negros fought a...
有给我的信件吗?
Any mail come for me?
为什么问? 你在等待什么吗?
Why? Are you expecting something?
没有 没有
No. No.
跟你说了这不行
I told you it wouldn't work.
妈妈?
Mom?
你得带我离开这儿
You gotta get me outta here.
我洗澡时他把窗户封死了
He nailed the window shut while I was in the bath.
爸爸没这么做 妈妈
Dad didn't do that, Mom.
我封死了窗户 因为你很不妥
I nailed the windows because you're not right.
他能听见 他在墙里埋了窃听线
He can hear you. He got wires in the walls.
你得休息 理一下头绪
You have to rest, clear your head.
- 你想回格雷斯敦吗? - 休想把我送回那儿
- Do you want to go back to Greystone - You wouldn't dare put me back there
妈妈 那就听我说
Mom, Mom. Then listen to me.
他能听见你
He can hear you.
- 他还能听见我吗? - 我刚怎么跟你说?
- Can he still hear me'? - What did I just say?
没事了
It's all right.
安静下来
Quiet down.
永远不要离开我
Don't ever leave me.
你打算跟我说你申请的事吗?
Were you gonna tell me that you applied?
我不想她知道
I didn't want her to know.
"被储藏的爱 最后都会发霉"
"Love that is hoarded moulds at last"
"直到后知后觉 我们唯一有的"
"Until we know, the only thing we have"
"是我们能给付的"
"ls what we give away"
"是我们能交付的"
"ls what we hand away"
有 交 更和谐
Have, hand. It's consonance.
给更押韵
Give, is. Assonance.
我写的这该死的诗
Hey, I wrote the goddamn poem.
好吗?
All right?
你干嘛不走出去 写你自己的诗?
Why don't you go write your own?
打开它
Open it.
哥伦比亚大学 本科生录取
- 我被录取了 - 录取了?
- I got in. - You got in?
- 哥伦比亚大学 - 进哥伦比亚大学 好的!
- To Columbia University. - You got into Columbia. Yes!
你不会想去那一区的
You don't wanna go down there.
那是妖精的土地 (暗指同志)
It's the land of the fairies.
去了那边 你就回不来了
Head there, you never come back.
路克·戴特威勒 弗吉尼亚州丹维尔市
Luke Detweiler, Danville, Virginia.
艾伦·金斯堡
Allen Ginsberg.
你是犹太人 对吗?
You're Jewish, right?
我很会看人
I'm getting good at telling.
南厅图书馆就像教堂
The South Hall library is a church
这些就是圣典
and these are the sacraments
一些历史上最重要的文献原件
original folios of the most important texts in history.
"贝奥武夫"
Beowulf.
第一版"哈姆雷特"
First Folio Hamlet.
"古腾堡圣经" (第一本活版印刷圣经)
The Gutenberg Bible.
这些都是我们学校的无价珍藏
These are among the university's prized possessions.
手别碰玻璃
Hands off the glass.
就让我们听几句 好吗?
Let's hear a bit, shall we?
"在一个星期日的下午"
"On a Sunday afternoon"
"当百叶窗都放下来"
"when the shutters are down"
"无产阶级占领了街道"
"and the proletariat possesses the street"
"几条大路延伸 只让人联想到"
"there are certain thoroughfares which remind one of nothing less"
"巨大的"
"than a big"
"长疳的"
"cancerous"
"鸡巴" (著名禁书"北回归线")
"cock"
- 这是什么鬼东西? - 亨利·米勒
- What is this nonsense? - Henry Miller
立刻给我下来
Get down immediately.
这本书是禁书
That book is restricted.
所以我才把它熟记于心
Which is why I committed it to memory.
警卫
Security.
你想做什么?
What the hell are you doing?
打给报社 跟他们说卢西安·卡尔是无辜的
Alert the press. Tell them Lucien Carr is innocent.
这是少见的突发状况
That was highly unusual.
本校一般是很安静的
Campus is actually quite quiet.
跟上来
Moving on.
维多利亚时代的十四行诗具有平衡三原则
The Victorian sonnet has the balance of three tenets
韵脚 韵律和譬喻
Rhyme, metre, conceit.
没有这个平衡 诗歌就变得松散
Without this balance, a poem becomes slack
像没有熨平的衬衫
an untucked shirt.
斯蒂夫斯教授
Professor Steeves.
那要怎么解释惠特曼? (美国大诗人 自由诗之父)
Then how do you explain Whitman?
说详细点 再多说一些
Say more. Two more sentences.
他厌恶韵脚和韵律
Well, he hated rhyme and metre.
他追求的就是把衬衫弄皱
The whole point was untucking your shirt.
你叫什么?
What's your name?
- 艾伦·金斯堡 - 金斯堡?
- Allen Ginsberg. - Ginsberg?
你父亲不会就是诗人路易斯·金斯堡吧?
Your father, perhaps, is the poet Louis Ginsberg?
他写的都是有韵脚韵律的诗
He writes with rhyming metred verse.
你觉得他为什么选择那种形式?
Why do you think he chose that form?
因为更简单
Because it's easier.
这个大学得以存在 是因为传统和形式
This university exists because of tradition and form.
你希望这栋建筑由工程师来建造
Would you rather this building be built by engineers
还是惠特曼和他的小伙伴?
or Whitman and his boys at play?
如果没有模仿…
There can be no creation...
就不会有创造
before imitation.
前方报道说纳粹
Reports from the front say the Nazis
正在运送新的军资和战备
are wheeling up fresh materiel and reserves.
把书合上
Shut the books.
我们要带我弟弟去社交
We're taking my brother with us to the social.
他明天就坐船走了
He ships out tomorrow.
我去不了 你看到我有多少功课了
I can't. You see how much I have to do.
他是海军 绝对能引来很多搭讪
He's Navy. It's catnip for the skins.
你们犹太佬真的只知道工作啊?
You hymies are really all about work, huh?
勃拉姆斯? (古典交响曲作者)
Brahms?
终于...
Finally...
废墟中走来一片绿洲
An oasis in this wasteland.
你怎么没去社交?
So how come you're not at the social?
只有最反社交的人才会去参加带社交名字的活动
Only the most antisocial have to go to an event actually called one
- 喝酒吗? - 你能在自己的房间喝酒?
- Libation? - What, you drink in your room?
一瓶可恶的意大利干红怎么样?
How does a horrible bottle of Chianti sound?
我不会喝酒
I don't drink.
新生?
Freshman?
- 是的 - 太好了 我喜欢第一次
- Yes. - Excellent. I love first times.
我希望我的全部人生都由第一次组成
I want my entire life to be composed of them.
人生只有够宽阔 才会够有趣
Life is only interesting if life is wide.
敬沃尔特·惠特曼
To Walt Whitman.
你这下流的小坏蛋
You dirty bastard.
你对叶芝怎么看? (神秘主义诗人)
How's your Yeats?
你读过"视界"吗?
Have you read A Vision?
闻所未闻
Never heard of it.
它棒极了
It's completely brilliant.
而且难以置信
And impossible.
他说生活是圆的
He says that life is round.
我们被困在这个生与死的车轮上
That we're stuck on this wheel of living and dying.
无尽的圆
An endless circle.
直到有人打破它
Until someone breaks it.
你走进来 你打破模式
You walked in here. You ruptured the pattern.
- 砰 整个世界变宽阔了 - 宽阔了
- Bang. The whole world gets wider. - Gets wider.
- 你怎么… - 这是和声
- How did you... -it's consonance.
通过对主题的重复
A reiteration of themes.
你是作者吗?
Are you a writer?
我有份差事需要一个作者
'Cause I've got a job for a writer.
不 我不是
No, I'm not.
目前你什么都不是
Well, you're not anything yet.
金斯堡
Ginsberg.
是在叫你吗?
Isn't that you?
- 金斯堡! - 干嘛?
- Ginsberg! - What?
电话
Phone call.
我很快回来
I'll be back.
谢谢
Thank you.
- 喂 - 我找到了那些线
- Hello. - I found the wires.
他想进入我的大脑
He's trying to get inside my head.
爸爸没有想进入你的大脑 好吗?
Dad is not trying to get inside your head, okay?
让他来接
Put him on.
他不在 走了
He's not here. He left.
他去哪儿了?
Where'd he go?
亲爱的 我需要你现在就回家
Honey, I need you to come home now.
妈妈 我没法回家
Mom, I can't come home.
听我说
Listen to me.
你必须得自己照顾自己
You have to look after yourself
我不舒服
I don't feel good.
- 你要去舞会吗? - 去市区
- Are you going to the dance? - Downtown.
- 现在? - 你在跟谁说话?
- Now? - Who are you talking to?
- 没有谁 - 他跟你在一起吗?
- No one. - Is he there with you?
不 妈妈 爸爸不在这儿
No, Mom, he's not here.
听着 我会尽快回来
Look, I will be there as soon as I can.
我今晚就需要你
I need you tonight.
我要你跟我发誓
I need you to promise me.
我发誓 我爱你
I promise. I love you.
拜
Bye.
走吗?
Coming?
欢迎来到世界的边缘
Welcome to the edge of the world.
艾伦来到仙境了
Allen in Wonderland.
- 你认识她? - 不 而且我没这打算
- Do you know her? - No, and I don't plan on it.
她的味道就像进口假货混合了国产香烟
She tasted like imported sophistication and domestic cigarettes
戴维 酒水在哪儿?
Dave, where's the liquor'?
我很快回来
I'll be right back.
你压住了
You are pinching.
- 你压住了 - 噢 抱歉
- You are pinching. - I'm sorry.
你还好吗?
You okay?
那是什么?
What's that?
麻醉用的笑气 (一氧化二氮 能让人轻快飘然)
Nitrous oxide for narco analysis.
知己知彼 百"闻"不殆
Know thyself and beshit thyself.
你吸过吗?
You ever done that?
谢谢 不用 我不嗑大麻
No thanks. I don't do the cannabis.
告诉我谁是既清醒又快乐的
Show me the man who is both sober and happy
我就给你看这个躺着的混球的皱菊花
and I will show you the crinkled anus of a lying asshole
艾伦 和威廉 威廉 和艾伦
Allen, Willy. Willy, Allen.
卢西安 和大麻烟
Lucien, reefer.
很高兴认识你
Nice meeting you.
- 他是罪犯吗? - 他做梦都想呢
- Is he a criminal? - He wishes he were a criminal.
他们巴罗斯家族比上帝还富有
The Burroughs family is richer than God.
- 他看着像罪犯 - 他是哈佛生
- Well, he looks like a criminal - He's a Harvard man.
他会成为了不起的艺术家
He's going to be an amazing artist.
他现在就是他自己
His current medium is himself.
- 那是什么? - 逃课用的
- What's that? -It's bunk for school.
来吧 我给你引见我们的主人
Come on. I want you to meet our host.
我们有的 亲爱的少女们 是一个圆
What we have, darlings and demoiselles, is a circle.
生活就是圆的
Life is round.
模式 习惯
Patterns, routines
自渎的轮子 (指手淫)
a wheel of self-abuse.
玛格丽特 别不承认
Margaret, don't even deny it.
- 他说话好像你 - 因为就是我说的
- He sounds like you. - Because it was me first.
直到我们一直渴望的破坏到来
Until the disruption we long for comes along
这个圆圈被打破
and the circle is broken.
他曾是我的守护天使 但他说我太难伺候了
He used to be my guardian angel, but he said I was too much work
就拿这位未开苞的男孩来说
Take this unbloomed stalwart.
你是?
And you are?
艾伦
Allen.
艾伦
Allen.
要友好哦 戴维
Play nice, David.
- 他不请自来的出现在我的公寓 - 事实上 是我邀请的
- Who comes uninvited to my apartment - Actually, I invited him
没人注意到他
No one notices him.
看他 为什么有这必要?
Look at him. Why would we bother'?
所以我们的生活模式得以维持
So the pattern of our lives holds.
可谁知道呢
But who knows
在合适情况下 哪怕他也可能改变这世界
Under the right circumstances, even he might change the world.
在远处我听到一个声音
In the distance I heard a sound
是人们行进的声音
The sound of marching men
所以你排队就餐认识了卢西安 现在就只看到他了
So you met Lucien in the lunch line, and now he's all that you can see
你为什么不喜欢我?
Why don't you like me?
因为戴维和你在排同一行队
Because David was in the same godforsaken line.
酒吧一个混球刚叫我小鬼
Some ear job at the bar just called me kid
所以我偷了他的酒水
so I stole his drink.
那是奥格登·纳什 (美国诙谐诗人)
That's Ogden Nash.
- 谁是奥格登·纳什? - 美国最畅销的诗人
- Who's Ogden Nash? - The best-selling poet in the country
也许你听过这句
Perhaps you've heard this one.
"戴眼镜的女孩 可能不会引起回头"
"The girl who is bespectacled she may not get her nectacled"
"但安全别针和摇篮车..."
"But safety pins and bassinets..."
"等着女孩变黄脸婆"
"Await the girl who fassinets."
他就靠这些卖钱? 我要杀了他
And that's what he's selling? I'll kill him.
正对他的喉咙
Aim for the throat.
不 我们不要杀他
No. We're not going to kill him.
更好的办法 是我们确保没人记得他
Even better, we're going to make sure nobody remembers him
几个人开启了文艺复兴?
How many men started the Renaissance?
- 两个 (但丁和彼特拉克) - 浪漫主义呢?
- Two. - And the Romantics?
更多 如果你的理论成立
More, I suspect, than this theory accommodates.
我们派遣上百万人去欧洲跟法西斯作战 但他们就在这里
We're sending millions to Europe to fight fascists but they're here
- 那些韵脚 韵律… - 还有斯蒂夫斯教授
- Metre and rhyme... - And Professor Steeves.
没错!
Yes!
他们都是监狱的狱卒
They're all guards in some prison.
让我们把囚徒们放出来玩耍吧
Let's make the prisoners come out and play.
让我们想新的诗句 新的韵脚
Let's come up with new words, new rhythms.
我们需要一个名字
We need a name.
"达达主义"怎么来的? (欧洲文化虚无主义运动)
How did they come up with "Dada"?
特里斯坦·查拉一刀扎进字典选出来的 (法国行为艺术家)
Tristan Tzara jabbed a knife into a dictionary.
妈的 所以有人用过了
Shit. So that's been done.
不用写一个字的文学革命
A literary revolution without writing a word.
- 好讨巧啊 卢 - 我有兴趣
- Neat trick, Lu. - Well, I'm listening
叶芝怎么样?
What about Yeats?
"新视界"
"The New Vision"
金
Ginsy.
你被聘用了
You're hired.
继续走 先生们
Keep it moving, gentlemen.
排成一排
Stay in line.
死变态们
Fucking perverts.
"在黎明 带着灼热耐心"
"In the dawn, armed with a burning patience"
"我们将进入辉煌的城市"
"we shall enter the splendid city."
- 该死 - 是兰波的诗 (法国大诗人)
- Shit. -It's Rimbaud.
有点夸张 我知道 他有这个资本
It's overwritten, I know. He's allowed.
不是 是我妈妈
No. My mother.
这可不妙 非常不妙
This is bad. This is very bad.
怎么了?
What is?
她一定会大怒
She's gonna be furious.
- 那就别去了 - 你不明白 我必须去
- Don't go then. - You don't understand. I have to
- 为什么? - 这很复杂
- Why? - It's complicated.
太好了
Perfect.
我喜欢复杂
I love complicated.
- 爸爸? - 在这儿签字 格雷斯敦会通知你…
- Dad? - Sign here. Greystone will alert you...
发生了什么事?
What's going on?
你妈妈需要休养
Your mother needs her rest.
妈妈
Ma.
你不能这么做
You can't do this.
你去哪儿了?
Where were you?
我和朋友出去了
I was out with a friend.
- 我给你打了电话 - 我知道
- I called you. - I know.
- 该走了 金斯堡夫人 - 不 你不能走
- It's time to go, Mrs Ginsberg - No, you're not leaving
- 他已经签了文件 - 爸爸 不
- He's already signed the papers. - Dad, don't.
- 这对大家都好 儿子 - 只对你好
- It's for the best, son. - Your best.
你知道 这是为她好
You know... it's for her best.
不是为我好 是为她好 你看看她
It's not for my best. It's for her best. Look at her.
- 不 - 你听她说的
- No. - Listen to her.
- 他不能… - 我知道 妈妈 别...
- He's not gonna... - I know it's not. Don't...
妈妈 放开她
Mom. Mom. Mom. Get off.
这是你的错
This is your fault.
够复杂了吗?
Complicated enough?
至少你还有她
At least you have her.
我爸爸在我四岁时就抛弃了我
My father left me when I was four.
我一直在想叶芝说的
I've been thinking about what Yeats said.
"要想重生 就得先死"
"To be reborn, you have to die first"
你想提议什么?
What do you suggest?
我花了一辈子来让其他人开心
I spent my entire life making other people happy.
是时候我用可能的唯一方式来让自己开心了
It's time I find happiness the only way I see possible.
拜托
Oh, please.
快死吧
Die already.
热情在哪儿? 活力在哪儿?
Where's the verve? The brio?
要由我来放纵我的自我意识
If it be that I am indulging my self-consciousness
来证明我自己 还是…
in justifying myself or if it be...
- 这句粘连了 - 别来编辑我
- That's a run-on. - Don't edit me.
- "新视界"宣称… - "宣告"更好
- The New Vision declares... -"Proclaims. " It's better.
宣告道德的死亡
Proclaims the death of morality.
自我的表达
The expression of self.
真实 不受限制 未经审查的自我表达
The true, uninhibited, uncensored expression of the self.
语言 男孩们 都是空洞语言
Words, boys. Empty words.
- 那你有什么建议? - 我们要先让感官迷乱
- Well, what do you suggest? - The derangement of the senses
你恨什么恨到骨子里?
What do you hate from the pit of your gut?
- 大学 - 新泽西州帕特森市
- Institutions. - Paterson, New Jersey.
- 我父亲 - 正确
- My father. - Bingo.
莎士比亚…
And the Shakespeare...
好吧
All right.
非凡的人鞭策社会前进
Extraordinary men propel society forward.
所以我们有责任违反法律
It is our duty to break the law.
- 真的吗? - 这样我们才能让世界拓展
- Really? - It's how we make the world wider.
- 你就是非凡的人 - 谢谢
- You are an extraordinary man. - Well, thank you.
要回归直觉
Return of the Native.
"利维坦" (国家主义专著)
Leviathan.
把它们撕毁 男孩们 破旧才能立新
Tear 'em up, boys. Destroy the old and build the new.
乔叟 吉本
Chaucer. Gibbon.
看这个
Watch this.
去做
Go.
这他妈是在做什么?
What the hell is this?
时间变慢
Time slows down
当你越来越深的遁入你的洞穴
as you drift deeper and deeper into your cave.
我们在探索艾伦大脑的回路
We are exploring the avenues of Allen's mind.
我敢说很暗淡 你们对我的公寓做了什么?
Dimly lit, I'm sure. What have you done to my apartment?
什么也别碰 我们需要全部写下来
Don't touch anything. We need to write it all down.
找一把剪刀 给这个男人一把剪刀
Grab a pair of scissors. Get this man a pair of scissors.
这不是你们的革命 这是我的生活
This is not your revolution. This is my life.
什么样的生活 戴维?
What kind of life is it, David?
至少是我的
It's mine.
不是每个人都有家里供养
Not everyone gets an allowance.
离开
Leave.
给我出去
Just get out.
我得和你谈谈
I need to speak with you.
单独的
Alone.
我只要五页的
It only has to be five pages.
这会显得我太聪明 他们会起疑心
You make me too smart, they're gonna suspect somethings up.
然后把你送回你母亲那儿?
And get you sent back to your mother again?
那就会是你的末日了
That would just be the end of you.
去你妈的
Fuck you.
杀死你的爱人
Kill your darlings
你的心动 你的幼稚形而上学
your crushes, your juvenile metaphysics.
这些都不属于纸面上
None of them belong on the page.
这是创造性作品的首要原则
It is the first principle of good creative work
作为期末考试 你们要交一篇小说
A work of fiction you will deliver as your final exam.
看啊
Look.
小惠特曼今天赏脸来上我们的课了
Whitman Junior graced us with his presence today.
"新视界"
"The New Vision."
"非凡的人鞭策我们前进"
"Extraordinary men propel us forward."
"所以我们有责任违反法律"
"It is our duty to break the law."
太好了
Fantastic.
这五页拥有的活力
There's more life in those five pages
比我们在课上读到的糟糕十四行诗要多得多
than in the dozens of bad sonnets we've read in this class
你要活力吗?
You want life?
你想这个世界被点燃?
You want the world on fire?
战争在等着
The war awaits.
你会成为什么?
What will it be?
"带着夏日香气的玫瑰"
"The rose that scents the summer air"
"长自我心爱人的发梢"
"grows from my beloveds hair."
往下看 我要交给斯蒂夫斯这首十四行诗
Keep going. That's my sonnet for Steeves.
我们有了地图
We have the map.
我们有了宣言
We have the manifesto.
我们该行动了
We need the work.
是我错了
I was wrong.
也许你没准备好做这件事
Maybe you're not up for this after all.
- 让我看看你他妈的地图 - 住手
- Show me your fucking map. - Stop.
这儿没有 因为戴维没在这儿写给你
No, there's nothing here because David not here to write it for you
- 我们很复杂 - 我喜欢复杂
- It's complicated. - I love complicated.
他是个教授 却在这儿做清洁工
He is a professor working as a janitor
这样他才能接近心爱的卢卢
so he can be near his precious Lu-Lu.
他是个该死的玻璃 他不肯放我走
He is a goddamn fruit who won't let me go.
玻璃?
A fruit?
基佬
A queer.
那么...
Then...
就让我们摆脱他
You know, let's get rid of him.
现在我只想你写出一些美妙的诗歌
Right now' I just need you to write us something beautiful
第一个念头 最好的念头
First thought, best thought.
艾伦来到仙境了
Allen in Wonderland.
甲基苯丙胺
Pervitin.
德国人管它叫"奇幻药" (纳粹发明的兴奋剂)
The Germans called it the "Wunderdroge."
能带来超人体能
Prescribed for superhuman feats.
但要注意它的副作用
But beware of the side effects
包括突然的短暂失明
which include sudden bouts of blindness
腹泻 心悸
diarrhea, heart palpitations
道德标准的严重倒退
and a severe decline in moral standards.
未开苞的男孩
Unbloomed stalwart.
把他们放出来玩耍吧
Come out and play.
你在做什么?
What the hell are you doing?
创作
Writing.
可是文字…
But the words...
那些文字啊
Oh, the words.
卢 这是初稿
Lu, it's very rough.
"视界"终于完成了
The vision at last.
我能看看吗?
Can I see'?
- 卢在哪儿? - 他出去了
- Where's Lu? - He's out.
跟一个高年级的...橄榄球员
With a senior football player.
一个作者
A writer.
而且很帅
And handsome, too.
叫詹姆斯?
James?
杰克 他的名字
Jack. There it is.
杰克
Jack.
你没有权利来这儿
You're not allowed to be here.
奇怪 我是唯一能留他在这儿的人
That's odd since I'm the only thing keeping him here
不再是了
Not any more.
给你一个忠告
Piece of advice.
你不了解卢
You don't know Lu.
你一旦觉得了解他 他就会找上别人
As soon as you think you do, he'll find someone else.
也许他已经这么做了
Maybe he already has.
怎么 你搬进来了吗?
What, are you moving in?
你去哪儿了?
Where have you been?
我找到了一个真正的作者
I found a real writer.
在来哥大前他就积累了成千上万句
Already a million words under his belt before Columbia
你说杰克?
You mean Jack?
为什么不跟我说?
Why didn't you tell me?
我要对你做新闻播报吗?
What, am I supposed to do newsreels?
那是什么?
What's that?
噢 没什么
Oh, nothing.
如果你要留宿 别抢我的毯子
If you're going to stay, don't hog the blanket.
为什么杰克是真正的作者?
Why is Jack a real writer?
你见到他后就知道了
Once you meet him, you'll see what I mean.
- 嘿 艾 - 不
- Hey, Al. - No.
- 来嘛 - 不
- Come on. - No.
不
No.
漏球了
Fumble.
- 杰克 刚才是怎么回事? - 猫在捣蛋
- Jack, what was that? - The damn cat.
她画的 什么也别说
She painted it. Say nothing.
- 这个什么时候到的? - 今天
- Hey, when did this come? - Today.
山米寄来的 他现在在哪儿?
It's from Sammy. Where is he now'?
我不知道 哪艘战舰上吧
I don't know. Some battleship.
你有什么想法?
What do you think?
棒极了 不是吗?
It's brilliant, no?
少了一些句号和逗号
It's missing some periods and commas.
比你写过的任何一篇都好
It's better than anything you've ever written.
- 我使用句号和逗号 - 你们俩 安静
- I use periods and commas. - Both of you, quiet.
凯鲁亚克 你好吗 哥们?
Kerouac. How are you, chum?
山米混球
Sammy, you bastard.
谁是山米?
Who's Sammy?
我12岁以来的最好朋友 正在海军
My best friend since I was 12. Off in the Navy.
我们刚经受了20天德军的炮轰
We've just been through 20 days of German shelling
每三小时一次 不分白天黑夜
every three hours, night and day.
这会是近期我录的最后一封信
This will be my last one for a while.
明天我们就上前线了 靠近罗马的某个海滩 叫安齐奥?
Tomorrow we're headed our to the front, some beach near Rome. Anzio?
去餐桌就坐吧
Go sit at the table.
听说那儿很美...
It's supposed to be beautiful...
我不知道我们有客人
I didn't know we were having guests.
这是什么?
What's this?
我打算做炖肉
I was aiming for stew.
是吗? 你失手了
Yeah? You missed.
来 伙计们
Come on, guys.
- 你去哪儿? - 外面
- Where are you going? - Out.
外面? 我在厨房为你忙了整天
Out'? I have been cooking all day for you.
那你要我怎么做? 吃皮鞋吗?
What? What do you want? Want me to eat shoe leather?
我很饿 而你下厨是种罪恶
I'm hungry, and what you do in the kitchen's unholy.
太好笑了 你说话像基督徒 可是你干了我又不肯和我结婚
That's funny. You talk like a Catholic but you fuck me and won't marry me
- 这算什么? - 闭上嘴 伊蒂
- How does that work? - Shut your mouth, Edie.
我以为你喜欢它张开呢
I thought you liked it wide open.
滚啦
Scram.
艾伦
Allen.
所以艾 你觉得我的小说是垃圾?
So, Al. Thought my novel was shit?
- 不完全是 我不会这样说… - 很正确
- Not exactly. It's not what I'd choose... -It's all true
杰克在商船队服役呢
Jack served in the merchant marines.
我辍学两次了
I left school twice already.
哥大有太多书呆子
Columbia's full of squares.
我都不知道为什么回来
Not even sure why I bothered to come back.
你干嘛不再出航呢?
Why don't you just ship out again?
相信我 当我和伊蒂吵架了 我就会有这想法
Trust me, sometimes when I fight with Edie, I want to
你们正好好吵架了
Well, you two did just fight.
卡尔 你一定是疯了
Carr, you're goddamn crazy.
"新视界" 好吧
"A new vision." Yeah.
听着很虚假
Sounds phoney.
不会写作的人写会写作的人 这样的运动很虚假
Movements are cooked up by people who can't write about the people who can
我觉得他没理解我们想做什么
I don't think he gets what we're trying to do.
听我说
Listen to me.
这个城市到处是高高在上 写光鲜字句的人
This whole town's full of finks on the 30th floor writing pure chintz
作者 真正的作者得缩在床上
Writers. A real writers gotta be in the beds
蹲在地沟 在所有破碎的地方
down in the trenches and all the broken places.
你的地沟在哪儿 艾?
Where were your trenches, Al?
- 艾伦 - 好的
- Allen. - Right.
第一个念头 最好的念头
First thought, best thought.
干你妈的 到底什么意思?
Fuck you. What does that even mean?
这很好 很不错 还有什么?
That's good. That's one. What else?
- 干你千万次 - 好 更好了
- Fuck your one million words. - Yes, even better.
你不了解我
You don't know me.
是的
You're right.
你是谁?
Who is you?
"警惕着"
"Be careful."
"你并不是在仙境"
"You are not in Wonderland."
"我听说奇特的疯狂在你灵魂里生长了好久"
"I've heard the strange madness long growing in your soul"
"可你是幸运的 因为你有傲慢"
"But you are fortunate in your ignorance"
"你隔绝着"
"in your isolation."
"痛苦的你们"
"You who have suffered"
"才能找到藏匿的爱"
"find where love hides."
"付出 分享 失去"
"Give, share, lose"
"至少不会未盛放就死"
"lest we die unbloomed."
艾?
Al?
真的很美 小鬼
That was beautiful, kid.
你写的?
You wrote that?
你要我写的
You asked me to.
忘记哥伦比亚
Forget Columbia.
忘记奥格登·纳什
Forget Ogden Nash.
我有个计划 男孩们 我们加入商船队
Here's the plan, boys. We join the merchant marines
航行到世界尽头
sail the world until the war ends
然后换船 去巴黎参加解放运动
then jump ship and make it to Paris for the liberation.
你不会说法语
And you don't speak French.
杰克会说
Jack does.
我们会一起开始
It'll be us together at the beginning.
那会是完美的一天
It'll be the perfect day.
- 我的上帝 - 手举起来
- Jesus Christ. - Get your hands in the air.
你已经被多个大学一再录取和辍学
You have managed to matriculate and drop out
包括杜兰 鲍登和芝加哥大学
of Tulane, Bowdoin and the University of Chicago.
你在本校的出勤记录...惨不忍睹
Your attendance record here is abominable.
你无视宵禁
You've ignored curfew.
你的论文 当你心情好提交的
Your papers, when you bother to turn them in
超出了规定的页数限制
exceed the assigned page limit.
你能解释一下为什么会来哥伦比亚吗?
Can you explain why you're at Columbia?
- 和你基于同样的理由 - 是什么?
- Well, the same reason you are. - What is that?
追巴纳德学院的女生 (纽约女子大学)
Loose Barnard girls.
我知道你的困扰 关于芝加哥发生的事
I know about your difficulties, about what happened in Chicago
- 你告诉他了? - 他不是敌人
- You told him? - He's not the enemy.
学校现在是作为你的监护人
You see, the university acts in loco parentis.
你是我们的责任
You are our responsibility.
我们在试着找出对你有益的办法
We're trying to find some way to make this all work for you
谁说谁有权知道关于谁的任何事?
Who said anybody could know anything about anything?
卢西安 注意脾气
Lucien, your temper.
我过得很好
Things were going fine
你这是在散布谣言 好让我被踢走
and you're just spreading rumours to get me kicked out of here
艾伦 这是怎么回事?
Allen. What the hell's going on?
她是谁?
Who's she?
嗨 我叫伊迪丝·科恩
Hi. I'm Edith Cohen.
她在这儿做什么?
What's she doing here?
我去外面等你
I'll go wait outside.
所以你才把妈妈关起来
So that's why you locked mom up.
立刻给我回来
Get back here immediately.
卢西安 卢西安
Lucien. Lucien.
- 卢西安! - 是他让你这样的吗?
- Lucien! - Did he put you up to this?
不
No.
是我偷的船
I stole the boat.
感觉好极了
And it was tremendous.
你要去哪儿?
Where are you going?
你现在看清我了
You know me now.
我只擅长开始
I'm only good at beginnings.
所以你就退学了?
What, you're dropping out?
祝你好运
Best of luck.
好吧
Okay
我爸爸今天带着一个新的女人出现
My father showed up today with some new woman
在所有他的"艾伦搞砸了"的独白中
and in the middle of all the "Allen's a screw-up" monologue
突然间 我意识到我不在乎了
all of a sudden, I realised I don't care.
我从没不在乎过
I've never not cared.
所以我跟他们说是我的主意
So, I told them it was my idea
我偷的船
to steal the boat.
为什么?
Why?
因为我不想再成为他们认为的我
Because I don't want to be the person they think I am.
我被留校察看 还可能被开除
I am on academic probation and I could get kicked out
所以你不能走
You can't leave.
你开启了什么 我完全不知道接下来会是什么
You started something and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do next
这是我们的机会
It's our turn.
让他们知道我们能做什么
Let's show them what we can do.
要加入吗?
You in?
限制借阅
翻阅时严禁喝东西 而且不能在上面勾划
You mustn't drink while you're handling it, and no writing in it
借阅和归还都要原封不动
It comes back exactly as you've got it.
下一个
Next.
一旦拿到书 你要非常小心的对待
Once you get the book, treat it very, very well.
不得弄坏订装线 现在跟我来
And you don't break the binding. Now follow me.
好了
All right.
嘿 别告诉伊蒂
Hey, no telling Edie.
也许你能帮我个忙 你一直在打量这些书
Maybe you can help me with something. You're checking out all these books
所以我问自己 你有被打量过吗?
I'm asking myself, do you ever get checked out?
25秒钟
Twenty-five seconds.
搭讪大师啊
Masterful.
- 嗨 - 嗨
- Hi. - Hi.
该死 她们换班了
Damn it. Shift's over.
明天见啊
See you tomorrow.
我来
I'll go.
嗨
Hi.
不知道你能不能帮我个忙
I wondered if you could help me.
当然
Sure.
我在找一本书
I'm looking for a book.
好的
Okay
- 这本书有名字吗? - 有的 有的
- Does this book have a title? - Yes. Yes.
它叫…"阿曼达来的那天" ("来"谐音"性高潮")
It's called The Day Amanda Came.
呃 你得等会儿
Well, you'll have lo wait.
我不能离开前台
I can't leave the desk.
我真的很需要
I really need it.
好吧
Okay
只为你破例
Only for you.
该死
Shit.
在这儿工作一定无趣吧
So working here must be a drag.
我喜欢这儿 只有这样我才能遇到男孩
I like it. It's the only way I meet boys.
我们在巴纳德被管得很严
They're very, very strict at Barnard.
真的? 有多严?
Oh, really? How strict?
嗯 比如说她们绝对不会允许我这样
Well, for example, they would never let me do this.
噢 不行啊
Right. No.
快去
Go.
知道吗 我还从没跟犹太人做过呢
Did you know I've never done it with someone who was Jewish before
我真的很兴奋能看到它的形状
I'm really excited to see what it looks like.
哇噢...
Well...
抱歉
I'm sorry.
我以为你在说什么 但不是说出来
I thought you were saying something, but not saying it.
我们是不是该去找你的书?
Should we find your book?
钥匙
The key.
没有什么书
There is no book.
- 给我脱 - 真的吗?
- Take it off. - Really?
- 你 你也脱 - 噢 好的
- You. You take it off. - Oh, okay.
我可不是处女 我跟四个男人做过了
I'm not a virgin. I have done it with four guys already.
你算是处男对吧?
You're kind of a virgin though, huh?
- 不是 - 骗子
- No. - Liar.
如果你做过 你就能撑够30秒
See, if you have done it before, you'll last for 30 seconds
开始计时吧
Stan counting.
一
One
二
two
三
Three
四
Four
五
Five
六
Six
七
seven
八
eight
九
Nine
我就知道
I knew it.
我敢说你都不看书
I bet you don't even read.
我看的
I do.
就是这儿了 伙计们 我们的巴士底狱
This is it, guys. This is our Bastille.
学生禁阅区
不准怯场
No chickening out.
抱歉
Excuse me.
我好像看到图书馆有灯光和动静
I think I saw some light or movement in the library.
限制读物
发生了什么?
What just happened?
我们知道你们在里面!
We know you're here!
快来
Come on.
卢?
Lu?
- 比尔 怎么回事? - 锁住了!
- Bill, what the hell? - It's locked!
这边
This way.
他们去那边了
I think they're this way.
我们知道你们在里面
We know you're here.
出来!
Come out!
嘿!
Hey!
卢 够了 你怎么回事 快走!
Lu, that's enough. What's wrong with you? Come on!
没完 我们必须有始有终
Not yet. We have to finish.
够了! 你完了!
Enough now! It's over!
放开我! 艾伦!
Let me go! Allen!
放开我 放开...
Let go. Let...
艾伦 放开我
Allen. Get off of me.
- 抓到一个 - 艾伦
- One prick. - Allen.
艾伦!
Allen!
你们立刻给我打开这该死的门
You guys open this goddamn door right now.
现在就打开这该死的门
Open this fucking door right now.
他妈的开门 开门...
Open the fuck up. Open the...
南厅图书馆就像教堂
The South Hall library is a church
而这些就是圣典...
and these are the sacraments...
"尤里西斯" (爱尔兰意识流小说)
"查泰莱夫人的情人" (劳伦斯的情欲名著)
"比利巴德和书记员巴特尔比" ("白鲸"作者的两部禁书)
我…的…天
Oh, my, God.
新视界
- 敬文学 - 敬文学
- To literacy. - To literacy indeed.
- 杰克 那是你 对吗? - 是的 去年的
- Jack, that's you, isn't it? - Yup. Last year.
他们还是赢了
They still won.
看他们
Look at them.
纪念品的历史
Souvenir history.
让人们以为他们在世界上留下了一些印记
To make people think they left some mark on the world.
因为除此外 就不会有人知道他们了
Because otherwise, nobody would ever know.
我永远也不想挂上那面墙
I never want to end up on that wall.
不用担心 你永远都不会的
Have no fear. You never will.
他在这儿做什么?
What's he doing here?
因为你早些时候没过来 我想来把这个给你
Since you didn't stop by earlier, I just hoped to give you this
西部的衰落 卢西安·卡尔 作
也许他不想看到你
Maybe he didn't want to see you.
我想他可以为自己说话
I think he can speak for himself.
是的 他的意思是我们可以再喝一轮了
Yup. He says that we should all have another round.
你有足够的时间来庆祝
You've had plenty of time to celebrate.
你的图书馆事迹登上早报了
Your library high jinks made the morning paper.
我敢说你们都很骄傲
I'm sure you're all very proud.
你怎么知道是我们?
How do you know it was us?
他有说那句巴士底狱吗? 那是我教他的
Did he use that Bastille line? 'Cause I gave it to him.
我有几天没见过你了
I haven't seen you for days.
你把这个忘在我的公寓了
You left this at my place.
是你跟警卫说我们在那儿的 其他人都不知道
You told the guards we were there. Nobody else knew.
你想我被退学吗 你揭发我
You wanted me to get kicked out. You ratted on me.
停止 卢 你正在失控 你知道接下来会是什么
Stop, Lu. You're losing control. You know what comes next
- 我知道接下来会是什么 - 没错
- I know what comes next. - Yeah.
跟他了断
Cut him off.
祝你好运 清洁工
Best of luck, Janitor.
- 什么? - 我们结束了
- Excuse me? - We are over.
离开
Leave.
看着我 卢
Look at me, Lu.
你说过我是你的一切
You said I was everything to you.
你就是我的一切
You are everything to me.
我的一切 你听到了吗?
Everything to me, do you hear me?
我们走吧
Let's go.
求你了 卢 求你?
Please, Lu. Please?
戴维 时间和地点
David, time and place.
闭嘴 叛徒
Shut up, traitor.
如果不是我 你早就死了
You'd be dead if it weren't for me.
如果不是我 你早无聊死了
You'd be boring if it weren't for me.
开始!
And go!
我的天!
Oh. my God!
- 杰克! - 杰克!
- Jack! - Jack!
杰克!
Jack!
他弄断了自己的脖子 勇士诗人挂掉了
He broke his fucking neck. The warrior poet has passed on.
没有!
No!
- 他活着! - 太好了!
- He lives! - Excellent!
评委的给分是...
Judges award a...
9分!
Nine!
- 我的天 - 杰克
- Oh, my God. - Jack.
好了 金 到你了
All right, Ginsy, your turn.
不不不
No, no, no, no.
这一切只是开始 知道吗
This is just the beginning, you know.
是你的错 金
Your fault, Ginsy.
都是你的错
It's all your fault.
第一个念头 最好的念头
First thought, best thought.
我觉得我刚吐到胃里了
I think I just puked on the inside.
咱们走 杰克
Let's go, Jack.
- 什么? - 艾 你来吗?
- What? - Wait. Al, are you coming?
不 艾伦有活儿要做
No, Allen's got work to do.
10页斯彭格勒的"西部的衰落" 明天交
Ten pages on Spengler's Decline of the West. Due tomorrow.
什么?
Excuse me?
没有你我已经迷失了 金
I'd be lost without you, Ginsy.
走吧 伙计
Come on, lion.
干!
Fuck!
在安齐奥登陆的盟军...
Allied fumes in Anzio...
伊蒂亲爱的!
Edie bird!
我的伊蒂亲爱的
My Edie bird.
我要用一下洗手间
I'm just gonna use the loo.
跟奶奶打招呼
Say hi to Gram.
我们请她来过生日的 我们给她做了蛋糕
We invited her over for her birthday. We made her a cake.
至少我们可以喝点什么 要喝一杯吗 弗兰奇奶奶?
Then we should have a drink. How about a drink, Grandma Frankie?
红酒怎么样?
You want some red wine?
- 你到底去哪儿了? - 我出去了
- Where the hell have you been? - I was out.
我收拾了你的东西 都在你的包里了 我今晚去奶奶那儿住
I packed your stuff. It's in your bag. I'm gonna be at Gram's tonight
嘿嘿 对不起 对不起
Hey, hey. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
- 不 你只是说说 - 真的对不起
- No, you just say that. - I'm sorry.
这只是你的无数空话 它们什么意义也没有
It's one of your million words, and they don't mean anything.
我早上回来的时候你别还在这儿
Just don't be here when I come back in the morning.
我知道这很疯狂
I know this is crazy.
我甚至不知道自己在这儿做什么 但我必须得...
I don't even know what I'm doing here, but I just had to...
跟你说对不起
tell you I'm sorry.
让我补偿你吧
Let me make it up to you.
卢 你在哪儿?
Lu, where are you?
我回去睡觉了
I'm going back to bed.
再说一个字我就报警
Another word and I call the police.
怎么回事?
What the hell?
我的上帝!
Jesus Christ!
哪个变态杂种会做这种事情?
What kind of sick son of a bitch would do something like this?
是戴维
It was David.
我要拧断他脖子
I'll wring his fucking neck.
没事了 没事了
It's okay. It's okay.
我有别的主意
I have another idea.
卢
Lu
你的论文
Your paper.
你要去哪儿?
Where are you going?
出海
Sailing out.
去巴黎
To Paris.
我们会作为商船队的水手
We're gonna make a ship as merchant seamen.
杰克懂怎么混上船
Jack knows the tricks.
你都不告诉我一声吗?
You weren't gonna tell me?
我们都知道为什么你不能去
We both know why you can't come.
去你妈的!
Fuck you!
你是骗子
You're a phoney.
你让我 杰克和比尔来实现你的"视界"
And you got me and Jack and Bill making your vision come true
因为你自己做不到
because you can't do it yourself.
不 艾伦
No, Allen.
你得到你想要的了
You got what you wanted.
你本来就普通 像每个新生一样
You were ordinary, just like every other freshman.
我让你的生活变得不寻常
And I made your life extraordinary.
去做你的自己吧 别来烦我
Go be you now, all by yourself. Leave me alone.
你不是这样想的
You don't mean that.
- 艾伦! - 求你
- Allen! - Please.
离开
Leave.
艾伦 你有见到他吗?
Allen, have you seen him?
- 他不在他的房间 - 他走了
- He's not in his room. - He left.
我做了一件错事
I did something wrong.
很错的事
Really wrong.
你没有帮我的理由 可是…
You have no reason to help me. But...
可是?
But?
我知道你是什么
I know who you are.
我们是他需要的 而不是想要的
We're the ones he needs but never wants.
很伤人 不是吗?
It hurts, doesn't it?
我只请求你告诉我他去哪儿了
All I'm asking is that you tell me where he is.
拜托
Please.
让我看你们的证件
Let me see your papers.
两个水手应征报道
Two seamen reporting for duty.
你叫什么?
What's your name?
亚瑟·兰波
Arthur Rimbaud.
去楼上签到
Go upstairs to get on the docket.
咱们去签到吧
Let's go get on the docket.
他妈的混球!
Goddamn son of a bitch!
让我来处理
Let me handle this.
你怎么知道我在这儿?
How did you know that I would be here?
听着 我跟楼上一个人谈过 我搞到了两张通行证
Listen, I spoke to a guy upstairs. I got us two passes.
我帮咱们收拾了行李
I packed for both of us.
我们可以离开了
We can leave.
我之所以离开就是因为你
The reason I am leaving is you.
那你和杰克拿着 我来找你们
Then you and Jack take them. I'll catch up.
跟我来
Come with me.
我们要走一走
We're taking a walk.
能给我一杯威士忌吗 谢谢?
Can I have a whisky, please?
对不起
I'm sorry.
卢?
Lu?
这个是今天到的
This came for you today.
山姆
Sam.
杰克 好哥们
Jack, old chum.
我正在医务船上 内脏被炸碎了
I'm on a hospital ship now. My gut's all tore up.
安齐奥会是我能看到的最后地点
Anzio's gonna be the last place I ever see with my eyes.
一枚迫击弹命中了帐篷里的我
A mortar round came and found me in my tent.
我能感到弹片留在我的皮肤内
I can feel metal under my skin some places.
有的直接穿过了我
Some went clean through.
他们已经停止尝试取出弹片了
They're not even trying to take it out no more.
护士们给了我同样的吗啡
The nurses gave me the same morphine
那些我不知道怎么办 给濒死孩子们的吗啡
I gave to dying boys when I didn't know what else to do.
"醒来 悲恸的母亲"
"Wake, melancholy Mother"
"快醒来哭泣"
"wake and weep"
"纠结的内心"
"Quench within"
"灼热的眼窝 让热泪烘干"
"their burning bed, Thy fiery tears"
"让嚎啕的心…"
“and let thou loud heart keep..."
这是什么?
What was that?
雪莱写给济慈的挽歌 ("阿多尼斯")
Shelley's elegy for Keats.
是什么意思?
What does that mean?
意思是他死了
It means he's dead.
他之后没再回来
He didn't come back here afterward.
这层没人看到他
Nobody on the floor saw.
我们羁押了两个 还在收集证据
We have two in custody. Were still gathering evidence.
关于这个男的我们还知道些什么?
So what else do we know about this guy?
伊蒂 杰克在吗?
Edie. ls Jack there?
你不知道吗?
You don't know?
知道什么?
Know what?
警察来过 把他抓进监狱了
The police came and took him down to the Tombs
作为从犯
as an accessory.
比尔也是
Bill, too.
发生了什么?
What happened?
艾伦
Allen.
谢天谢地
Thank God.
他想伤害我
He wanted to hurt me.
我没有选择
I had no choice.
你可以逃走的 可以叫警察
You could've run, called the police.
听着
Listen.
不知怎的 他在船政厅找到了我
Somehow he found me at the Marine Hall.
他说不管我去哪儿 他都会跟随我
He said that no matter where I went, he would follow.
当我和他对峙时 他爆发了
When I confronted him, he exploded.
我只能正当防卫
I had to defend myself.
他不肯停下来
He wouldn't stop.
杰克和比尔怎么被扯进来的?
How did Jack and Bill get roped into this?
我事后去找过他们
I went to them after.
我首先找杰克
First, I went to Jack.
他跟我说处理掉刀子
He told me to get rid of the knife
忘记整件事情
and to forget the whole thing.
可是我又去找了比尔
But then I went to Bill.
他跟我说找个律师
He told me to get a lawyer.
去认罪
To confess.
说这是正当防卫行为
To say that it was an act of self-defence.
检察官找我取证
The DA is asking for my deposition
要书面的
in writing.
我写不出来
I can't do it.
我不知道我能怎么做
I don't know what I'm going to do.
我的后半辈子都会被困在这儿了
I'm gonna be stuck in here for the rest of my life.
别把我留在这儿
Please don't leave me here.
我来写
I'll do it.
我们得说这是"名誉杀害"
We're going to say that it was an honour slaying.
"与从事的致死攻击有关"
"Relating to a lethal attack committed"
"当被告面对一个确知同性恋采取自卫行为"
"when the accused is defending himself against a known homosexual"
"假如被告是异性恋"
"If the accused is heterosexual"
"他可以被免责"
"he shall be pardoned."
"但假如被告是同性恋"
"But if the accused is homosexual"
"罪名将是一级谋杀罪..."
"the charge of murder in the first degree..."
爸爸?
Dad?
保释金要五千块
It's $5,000 bail.
我知道 我知道数目很大
I know. I know it's a lot.
凯鲁亚克家从来没有人卷入过谋杀
No Kerouac was ever wrapped up in a murder.
下地狱吧!
Go to hell!
都他妈的给我闭嘴好吗!
Would you all just shut the hell up!
你得知道 戴维跟踪他好多年
You must understand that David has been following him for years
当卢去鲍登大学 戴维突然出现了
When Lu went to Bowdoin, David appeared out of thin air.
所以我送他去芝加哥
So I sent him to Chicago.
很意外的
Surprise.
戴维也出现在那儿
David turned up there, too.
然后当卢西安想去墨西哥的时候
Then when Lucien wanted to go to Mexico
猜猜谁把车停在车道了?
guess who had a car idling in the driveway?
可是他不需要跟他走
But he didn't have to go with him.
他编织了一张网粘住我的儿子
He spun a web to ensnare my son.
所以我才带他来这儿
That's why I brought him here.
现在看来也没什么好处
Lot of good that did.
在芝加哥发生了什么?
What happened in Chicago?
谢天谢地卢的生命里有你
Thank God Lu has you in his life.
知道吗 艾伦?
You know what, Allen?
他管你叫他的守护天使
He calls you his guardian angel.
他也这么叫戴维的
That's what he called David.
那个男人毁了我的儿子
That man ruined my son.
你得帮我拯救剩下的他
You're gonna help me keep what's left of him.
与报道相反
Contrary to reports
监狱根本不是精神的疗养所
prison is not a tonic for the spirit.
所有地区检察官在意的就是戴维是不是基佬
All the district attorney cared about was that David was queer
你跟他们怎么说?
And what did you tell him?
我说是的
I said yes.
戴维在芝加哥对卢做了什么吗?
Did David do something to Lu in Chicago?
上帝啊 艾伦 别卷进来
Christ, Allen, please don't get involved.
我没得选择
I have to be.
我要帮他写辩护书
I'm helping him write his defence.
戴维曾经是我的朋友
David was my friend.
他已经死了
And he's dead.
卢西安有告诉你他怎么死的吗?
And did Lucien tell you how he died?
他可能不想你知道 艾伦
He might not have wanted you to know, Allen.
他把戴维绑了起来
He tied David up.
把石头放进他的兜里 增加他重量
Put stones in his pockets to weigh him down
然后把他拖入哈德森河
and then dragged him into the Hudson.
什么?
What?
他当时还活着 艾伦
He was alive, Allen
直到卢西安将他溺毙
until Lucien made him drown.
你是谁? 他跟这事有关吗?
Who are you? Is he part of this business?
放过他 爸爸
Leave him alone, Dad.
我给你付的保释金
I paid your bail.
别跟我这么讲话
Don't talk to me like that.
是 先生
Yes, sir.
车5分钟后走
The car leaves in five minutes.
我们的自由小圈子到了尽头
The libertine circle has come to an end.
回到最开始吧
Go back to the beginning.
"芝加哥 库克郡医院"
"Cook's County Hospital of Chicago."
卢西安·卡尔
18岁
尝试自杀 吸入煤气
送院人 戴维·凯默若
第一监护人
"戴维·凯默若"
"David Kammerer."
完美的一天
The Perfect Day
学生对杀人同学保持沉默
他会要我一个人在那个房子
He would leave me alone in the house.
- 我会死在那儿 - 不 你不会
- I was gonna die there. - No, you weren't.
- 会 我知道 - 不 妈妈 打住
- Yeah, I know it. - No, Mom. Stop.
嘿 我现在没事了
Hey. I'm okay now.
我是你妈妈 我没事了
I'm your mother and I'm okay.
可你有事
But you're not.
我头脑很乱
I'm in over my head.
我认识的一个人 他杀了个人
Someone I know killed a man.
而…
And...
我不知道该怎么做
I don't know what to do.
他想要我的帮助 我不知道该不该帮他
He wants my help and I don't know if I should give it to him
我不知道那是不是对的
I don't know if it's right.
我很乱
It's just a mess.
你对他放手
You let him go.
- 什么? - 别帮他
- What? - Don't help him.
- 我做不到 妈妈 他是我最好的朋友 - 听着
- I can't, Mom. He's my best friend. - Listen to me.
你爸爸做过最重要的事 就是放弃我
The most important thing your father ever did was fail me.
知道吗?
You understand?
他爱你
He loved you.
事实是 一度的...
And the truth is, once...
你也爱他
you loved him back.
- 那我的需要呢? - 可是这个秘密在侵蚀你
- What about what I need? - But the secret ate away at you.
我只是孩子 你把我牵扯进你的变态烂摊子
I was a kid, and you dragged me into your perverted mess.
所以在芝加哥 你试过自杀
So in Chicago, you tried to kill yourself
你怎能这样说? 你知道这不是真的
How can you say that? You know that's not true.
他救了你
He rescued you.
我永远都不会放弃我们
I will never give up on us.
他救了你的命
He saved your life.
你真可怜
You're pathetic.
你需要他 跟他需要你一样多
You needed him as much as he needed you.
现在我知道你的感受了
Now I know how you felt.
什么时候?
When?
当你想死的时候
When you wanted to die.
做啊
Do it.
做啊
Do it.
有些东西
Some things
当你爱过后
once you've loved them
就永远的属于你
become yours forever.
如果你想对它们放手
And if you try to let them go
它们只会打转 又回到你身边
they only circle back and return to you.
它们成为了你的一部分
They become part of who you are.
"不然就毁了你"
"Or they destroy you."
你不能把这个给任何人看
You can't show this to anyone.
- 那就说出真相 卢 - 你都不在场
- Then tell the truth, Lu. - You weren't even there.
那是你的真相 是小说!
It's your truth. It's fiction!
你也想他消失 你把他送到我面前的
You wanted him gone, too. You sent him to me.
求你了 这个会害死我
Please. You'll kill me with that.
艾伦 不
Allen. No.
艾伦 别 不!
Allen! Don't. No!
不!
Don't!
艾伦·金斯堡
Allen Ginsberg.
他很快就能见你 请坐下等
He'll be with you in a minute. Please have a seat.
地区检察官詹姆士·斯宾塞办公室
存疑的夜
金斯堡先生 他可以见你了
Mr Ginsberg, he's ready for you.
金斯堡先生?
Mr Ginsberg?
你指望我们怎么回应这个?
How did you expect us to react to this?
不 请告诉我
No, please, tell me.
斯蒂夫斯教授说你把这个提交作为期末论文
Professor Steeves says that you submitted it as your final.
那么我跟你说吧
Well, then let me tell you.
它很淫秽 而且很荒谬
It's smutty and it's absurd.
可你读完了
But you finished it.
你已经缺了两门课 而且正在留校察看
You have taken incompletes in 2 classes and you are on academic probation
在你被这所大学录取时你同意遵守一些规则
There are rules that you agreed to upon acceptance into this university
而你成功的打破了他们 并且再三这样做
and you managed to break and you just keep breaking them.
你似乎对这所学校没抱有多少的敬意
You don't seem to have much respect for this institution.
所以 你要么...
So, you may either...
收回这篇作为期末论文的小说 或者选择被开除
retract this fiction as your final or you may choose to be expelled
你会怎么做?
What will it be?
好的
Fine.
就当我被开除了
Consider me expelled.
不 这个由我们保管
No, this remains with us.
今日世界新闻 由孩之宝公司赞助播出
World News Today, brought to you by Hasbro Corporation.
这是给你的
This came for you.
存疑的夜 艾伦·金斯堡 作
小惠特曼 就这样写 继续写作 斯蒂夫斯教授
幸存者们都集结在大街上庆祝
and Survivors have assembled in the streets in celebration.
长久的黑暗终于过去了
This is the end of a long darkness.
法国和欧洲终于解放
France and Europe are finally free.
又一个爱人奔向了苍穹
Another lover hits the universe.
圆圈被打破
The circle is broken.
但死亡也带来了重生
But with death comes rebirth.
就像所有的爱人和悲伤的人
And like all lovers and sad people
我是个诗人
I am a poet.
通过将戴维·凯默若描绘成同性恋纠缠者
卢西安·卡尔承认一级过失谋杀罪
他在少管所服刑18个月
他成为美国合众国际社编辑 直到2005年去世
他结过两次婚 育有三名子女
伊蒂·帕克家保释了杰克·凯鲁亚克
前提是他们结婚和搬去密歇根
因为思念纽约好友
他悔婚然后踏上启发他写出"在路上"的长途旅行
威廉·巴罗斯离开他的家族 在纽约过着罪恶生活
并将之记录在小说"瘾君子"和
"裸体午餐"中 他和杰克合写了第一本书
一本关于戴维·凯默若谋杀的小说
该书封存六十多年都未出版
在被哥伦比亚大学开除后
艾伦·金斯堡成为了美国史上获奖最多的诗人
他将他的第一本出版物 "嚎叫和其他诗歌"献给卢西安·卡尔
作为回应 卢西安要求他的名字在以后再版中被隐去
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